hard times.

Sometimes things can get so rough you just feel like it is time to give up. Whitney is everything to me and I honestly have never felt this way. I love the feeling. When I first met Whit, I was so excited to tell all of my friends about how it went and how amazing she was. A lot of times friends are extremely supportive, but what if they aren't at all? What if they judge you only because you are a lesbian? I find myself wondering if people realize how much their judgmental looks can hurt a person.
Last night I met Whitney's extended family for the first time at her cousin's wedding. The wedding was small and pretty. Amanda's dress was gorgeous. Then we went to the "after party." The party started off pretty good. We drank and sat around waiting for dinner. I sat at a table with Whit, her sister Jacy, Andrew, Kalli, Aunt Joanie, Whit's cousin, Tony, and Tony's dad. I think the worst feeling in the world is getting referred to as your girlfriend's roommate and not a girlfriend. Is it easier for people to just ignore the obvious to make themselves feel better? What is so horrible about being gay? Have I hurt anyone? Is it only love when it is heterosexual love? Denying us the same rights as a heterosexual couple, is saying that what we feel is merely a lie that we tell ourselves, or a phase we are going through. I love Whitney with all of my heart. There are no doubts, there are no uncertainties, and it definitely is neither a phase nor is it a lie. I can understand some people denying the truth that we are a couple, because some elderly people are set in their ways and will never be open minded. So what exactly is everyone else's excuse?
After the party, we left and went to Mary Lou and Ken's house. As if I didn't already feel super akward, when I got into the door one of the girls looked at me like I was the most ridiculous thing she'd ever seen. I wanted to smack the shit out of her. It was like she cringed when Whit said "this is my girlfriend Staci."

Now we are back at the apartment in IL... THANK GOD!
No judgment, just time with my baby.