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hard times.

Sometimes things can get so rough you just feel like it is time to give up. Whitney is everything to me and I honestly have never felt this way. I love the feeling. When I first met Whit, I was so excited to tell all of my friends about how it went and how amazing she was. A lot of times friends are extremely supportive, but what if they aren't at all? What if they judge you only because you are a lesbian? I find myself wondering if people realize how much their judgmental looks can hurt a person.
Last night I met Whitney's extended family for the first time at her cousin's wedding. The wedding was small and pretty. Amanda's dress was gorgeous. Then we went to the "after party." The party started off pretty good. We drank and sat around waiting for dinner. I sat at a table with Whit, her sister Jacy, Andrew, Kalli, Aunt Joanie, Whit's cousin, Tony, and Tony's dad. I think the worst feeling in the world is getting referred to as your girlfriend's roommate and not a girlfriend. Is it easier for people to just ignore the obvious to make themselves feel better? What is so horrible about being gay? Have I hurt anyone? Is it only love when it is heterosexual love? Denying us the same rights as a heterosexual couple, is saying that what we feel is merely a lie that we tell ourselves, or a phase we are going through. I love Whitney with all of my heart. There are no doubts, there are no uncertainties, and it definitely is neither a phase nor is it a lie. I can understand some people denying the truth that we are a couple, because some elderly people are set in their ways and will never be open minded. So what exactly is everyone else's excuse?
After the party, we left and went to Mary Lou and Ken's house. As if I didn't already feel super akward, when I got into the door one of the girls looked at me like I was the most ridiculous thing she'd ever seen. I wanted to smack the shit out of her. It was like she cringed when Whit said "this is my girlfriend Staci."

Now we are back at the apartment in IL... THANK GOD!
No judgment, just time with my baby.

Will we ever be equals?

So today Whit and I went walking around Wicker Park in Chicago, IL. We were stopped by a man with the Human Rights Campaign (HRC). The HRC is the largest lesbian, gay, bisexual, and transgender (LGBT) political action committee in the United States. It claims over 750,000 members and supporters. "HRC envisions an America where gay, lesbian, bisexual, and transgender people are ensured equality and embraced as full members of the American family at home, at work, and in every community." For as little as 50 cents a day you can help us get closer to equality.


I just don't understand why it is such a big deal. We aren't hurting anyone, are we? So many people are hiding behind they're ways and refuse to see that the world is changing. Being gay is not a phase nor is it a choice. I didn't wake up one day and decide "you know what? I think I'm going to be gay to piss off the world!" Quite frankly, somedays I wish I wasn't... It would be so much easier to be straight.

Go learn more;; http://www.hrc.org

the L word

So yesterday my girlfriend and i decided we were going to have a movie day. We rented Sunshine Cleaners with Amy Adams, and the first two discs of The L Word Season One. Sunshine Cleaners was a pretty decent movie. Rose (Amy Adams) and her sister, Norah (Emily Blunt), cleaned up crime scenes to raise up enough money to send Rose's son to a private school. I'm kind of biased because I'm definitely a fan of Amy Adams, but regardless it was still a good movie.

I had heard a LOT about The L Word. It is definitely an extremely controversial show. I think that each of us can probably somehow relate with at least one of the characters. Dana, one of the main characters, is a professional tennis player who is afraid to come out. When I was younger, I was terrified of what people would think of me when I decided to come out. In middle school, everyone knew me and I got along with pretty much everyone. I was far from shy and I was very confident. Living in the "bible belt," people weren't exactly open to the idea of lesbians or gay men. My parents were in denial for a long time. Many of my friends suddenly weren't my friends anymore, and the friends who stayed around started to treat me differently. It got easier as I got older, but I never got used to some of the things that came along with being gay. Things like being called a dike, or being judged at work kill me.

to be continued..

shopping...

I have only met a few people who did not enjoy shopping. I am definitely not one of the few who doesn't like it. I love to shop. I have officially decided that I despise shopping for khakis. They never fit right, they aren't as comfortable as jeans, and quite frankly I don't like the way they look. I have also decided that stores think women have no curves at all. Apparently we are all twigs. If you aren't a size 4 or lack curves you are going to have a hard time looking for khakis. So do everyone a favor and shop for shoes! They always fit.

Lab Corps

How many of you have had to take a urine sample drug test? When I was in high school, my dad was convinced that I was a pothead. He was one of those people that was so convinced that he ordered an at home drug kit. So after a while you'd think that I'd gotten over my fears of drug tests. WRONG! One of the requirements for my new job was to have a drug test before I could start. Piece of cake, right? As if I wasn't already nervous enough about it for some reason, it took me forever to find the place. I called the place and they had a recording that said "Thank you for choosing Lab Corps. We are located on 2334A W Higgins Rd, in Hoffman Estates." After driving around for like 20 minutes, I started to get pissed off. I finally got through to an actual person, rather than a recording, and OF COURSE it was an Indian person that I couldn't understand. What a help that was! I ended up finding it after about 45 minutes of an unnecessary adventure. It ended up being in the center of a little shopping "square." All of the other little stores had signs leading you to their doors, but of course the one place I was searching for only found it necessary to put the sign on the inside of the door.

Aren't drug tests fun?

sweet caffeine

Random tidbit of the day;;
Starbucks is the fastest growing coffee company in the United States right now. I'm sure everyone by now has tried it but if you haven't, I definitely recommend you trying my addiction. Grande mocha frappuccinos are amazing! But would you try it if you knew all of the facts? I recently found that the regular grande mocha and the grande mocha light taste almost identical. So instead of going for a regular, you should contemplate trying the light. Can you taste the difference? If you are ever in the Schaumburg area, Golf Rd has the most delicious coffee I've ever had and take it from someone who drinks frappuccinos daily, I've tried many different Starbucks.

Take a look at the nutritional facts =)

Grande Mocha Frappuccino
16 fl. oz.
Calories................380
Fat Calories.........130
Total Fat(g).........15
Sodium(mg)........240
Total Carbs(g).....57
Caffeine(mg)........115

Grande Mocha Light Frappuccino
16 fl. oz.
Calories................140
Fat Calories.........10
Total Fat(g).........1
Sodium(mg)........230
Total Carbs(g)....29
Caffeine(mg).......95

nutritional facts found on http://www.starbucks.com